Is it a Solid Way to die if I push a sharp-pointed object ( e.g. an ice-Picker ) with Force into my SupraSternal-notch?

” There are lots of better ways to go than this. I don’t know why people over complicate things when there is enough information out there on the most effective and painless methods. ”

I have spent a lot of Time on the internet… please help * pleading face *

If I lived in the United States of America, I would be most probably already death.
Pistol.

Also, I sometimes thing of Traveling to America when I can.
They call it ” The land where everything can ”.
‘… to buy myself a Pistol. I already know a 100% for sure way to die with a Pistol.

If I cannot get a license – which will probably the case when they need to read my Mental Care papers first – I go to the Bronx or any Notorious place to try and find my affluence over there.

I also sometimes think of Paying a Heavy Crime in America, in the right state, hoping for the Death Penalty. What a Luxery : -)
Of course I need to act as if I don’t like to die if that’s the case, of course.

I am getting Aggressively Mindsetted because People here in the Netherlands ( where it rarely happens that someone pays Suicide with a Gun.. ) try to prevent me from doing so – Suicide. I want to hurt people. I already have those ideas. It already happened once that I had that strong feeling, really, it’s irrational, but it’s there. It is the Sorrow of Suffering that caused this Anger to Random people. It didn’t had to happen if I was already Death.
And I don’t want to go to Prison. Paying suicide over there is even harder, not even talked about the improper acts that have been Caused, that would bring me ‘ legitimately ‘ to Prison.
Sometimes I am a little bit frightened about that time when I really wanted to hurt people. Random People. It is a feeling. It is there, irrationally.
Now the feeling is ( Relatively ) low. But I have thoughts.

Well… I typed a lot, again. Lol !!

A Quote I often times have in my head, derived from Chess reading/videos I think: ” We don’t plan to Live. We plan to die. ”

* I am always talking in myself with ‘ We ‘ (…)

please help me.
I don’t want to fight each one of you in a discussion.
I want to die.
So I was suffering today, again – such as always I can already say – and so I am dependent on each one of you on my Route to the way out.
I need to die. Die.
DEAD.

” We don’t plan to Live. We plan to Die. ”

Duke of Marmalade and Orangish, please say useful methods ( in Private Messages ). I don’t care the ‘ Rules ‘. It’s everywhere, those Rules. They are Rotten as they are Dogmatic and Premature. please help.