I’m fed up of broken promises of ‘when you move to X, things will get better’. I moved schools three times (once in year 8, then again in year 12). It never got better. Now I’m at uni and I was lured in with that same stupid lie. It isn’t better here. If anything it’s worse. I’ve already overdosed here, unfortunately failing. I’m just fed up and lonely and at the end of a thin rope. I’m ready to snap.
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Well sure, Ms. Winter Sparkles, I’ll be your friend–and I’ll start by being honest and saying that I can talk to you for hours on end, I can listen to you for hours on end, I can utilize this marvelous invention at my fingertips and span thousands of miles to communicate with you for hours on end and try to keep you from feeling lonely…
But I still can’t be there with you at all times, no one can, and you’ll still feel lonely sometimes, lonely and miserable and feeling as if you cannot take anymore slings and arrows that life hurls at you for no other reason other than the basic and inescapable fact that life is, has been, and always shall be unfair.
That being said–I can be your friend, talk or listen (whichever you prefer, after all) and we can make a good time of it, or at least as good a time of it as possible. 🙂
I myself am not suicidal, nor have I ever been; I just signed onto this site to talk to people…and, again, to listen.
So, what would you like to talk about, or what would you like me to talk about, or what would you like to say? (If I were physically there I’d ask if you’d like to just enjoy the company of an un-lying, amicable friend for a while, like bathing in the quiet calm and warmth I can find here in those secluded areas of my Southern Californian homeland…but that’s rather hard to do over the internet. 😉 Still, if you’d rather skype, or whatever else, let me know, it’s your friendship to initiate on your own terms…my only one is that I may ask one question–
What do you like to read? I’m all about literature, it’s what I have a degree in and it’s my life, I love to read and love to write, so I always ask what others like to read, as reading even tragedies so often helps me when I feel alone or betrayed, as we all do from time to time…you can probably tell from my name I like Hamlet and Sherlock Holmes, two of my favorite characters…what about you?)
Anyway, let me know–I’ll be here. 😉
Ill be your friend. I grew up in a military family so I’ve moved every 4 years. I’m in college now but growing up I went to 2 different elementary schools, 3 different middle schools, homeschooled during 7th grade because I was bullied out of school, and 2 different high schools. I’ve lived in 7 different states growing up, so I know what it is like to not have friends and to switch schools a lot. I’ve always had a very hard time making new friends because I knew I would end up moving in 4 years. Message me if you want to talk over Skype, yahoo, oovoo whatever you want to talk over. I’m a listening ear.
SH, you have no idea how much I appreciate your message – you’ve actually taken the time to sit down and write something personal. I’ve felt like no-one’s really wanted to do that recently, and if they have they’ve gone about it in the wrong way…
I just want someone I can discuss everyday things with, I don’t want my only topics of discussion to be A. my university course or B. how much I hate life. I’d just like something normal, something that normal people talk about. Even just the weather, something as simple as that.
I’m in the UK, it’s cold and rainy, and I was dragged out today even though I wanted to spend time inside with a nice hot chocolate.
I’ve not had time to read much recently.. well, I’ve not had the energy to. I like travel writing, because it relates to my uni course (Hispanic Studies). I can’t even lie to you and reel off a list of characters I ‘relate’ to or even just like, because my mind is so muddled right now that I can just about think about what I’m wearing, letalone how to read a book… x
Seriously long response…… We can be friends
Hm, well, what would you like to talk about in terms of everyday things, then?
I can tell you that you’re living somewhere I’d love to visit someday (all the great writers the UK’s produced…!) The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence–or Pond–but still, I’d love to visit someday…it doesn’t rain much here in Southern California, it’s either hot and dry or bitterly cold and dry as it’s a valley-desert sort of area, a couple hours away from Los Angeles.
I had a professor here who was from the UK, and she also loved travel writing (she did her doctoral thesis on it, in fact) and I’m reading Virgil’s “The Aeneid” (a bit of an ancient travel story, though more of an origin story in the form of a mass national epic) right now for fun with 5 other ENG courses (I told you I was obsessed with literature and writing 🙂 ) what sort of travel books do you like, or what do you like about travel stories (where would you like to travel yourself, since I’ve already shamelessly said how I’d love to gawk at all the great birth sites for folks like D.H. Lawrence and John Locke…and of course Shakespeare…) 🙂
Geting dragged out of the house on a cold day can be trying, I know, you just want to stay inside where it’s warm and relaxing…why’d you have to go out, or what are some of the things that’re making you feel muddled right now (it never is just one thing, so it probably feels overwhelming and like too much, but still, sometimes just plucking one thread is enough to start unraveling an issue…
Or we can just talk, about whatever, books or hot chocolate…or whatever you like, it IS your life and your post, after all, that you have control over.
(If you are from the UK, and 8 hours ahead of Los Angeles, then what’s mid-afternoon or so for you right now is Thanksgiving morning for me…but I’m not much of a holiday person anyway, so I’m still game to chat about whatever you like.)
😉