How can we know that we are loved? Kisses. I’ve never been kissed in my whole life. Yeah, I’m ashamed because of that. Come on, I’m a teenager and that means, to me, that I’ve never been loved, not even a child love. Well, when I was a seven or eight year old girl, a friend kissed me. Have you ever seen those kisses between children? Was something like that. He acted like a ************ with me the rest of my childhood, telling me that I was ugly and fat constantly. God, I hate the bastard. Anyway, that was my first kiss. I don’t know why that happened, we was watching a Disney film about ants and in some scene the guy kisses the princess of the anthill. So my friend say “do you want to try that?” and I said “yes”. He kissed my hand, then my lips. It’s a funny memory. My second kiss was when I was with some of my cousin friends and I kissed three of them. I didn’t even know how to kiss! That’s even funny. They were really virgin so our lips just touched a little. My third kiss was the same thing, with a friend. Nothing of love or anything, and I’m still here without know how to kiss. My lips have touched penises, but haven’t touched love. It’s funny and sad. Just like in that Drew Barrymore’s film.
Love is for pretty people, and I’m not. I don’t even have the personality that makes people fall in love. I have nothing more than a fish bowl.
Sorry for writing such a insignificant thing, but try to understand that I’m just 13 years old and that I see how all my friends seem to be in love all the time. It’s frustrating being here by myself. Â Pathetic, isn’t it?
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In a couple of months, I’m going to be 20 years old. I’ve never been kissed. No one has ever told me they love me, not even my parents. You’re so young. You have all the time in the world! Once you get to high school and college, your options open up. When I was your age, none of the boys at my school were even remotely interesting enough to talk to. Now, there’s so many more people to talk to, and you WILL find a special someone.
You know? It’s funny that I’m talking about love. I mean, am I person who avoids that topic. Never mind. I guess you’re right, maybe someday someone will love me. I don’t understand why you have never been kissed, you seem to be a great person and I’m sure you’re really pretty (at least prettier than me but that’s an easy challenge). Smile: I love you because you made me feel better.
Oh god, i’m 14 and i have the total same problem. And i know, to me, that it’ll never happen. But in a way, i’m not interested and i’m too ugly. I’m sure that one day some one will love you and like you for you. Trust me, you will get kissed out of love. 🙂
I’m almost 17 and I’ve never been kissed which is odd because now practically everyone my age is having sex and stuff. I mean, I was technically kissed by a guy who’s now like my best guy friend when we were 9, but he only kissed me because the girl he really wanted to kiss wasn’t available. I don’t think he remembers it and I’m not gonna remind him. Either way, I’ve never felt any romantic feelings towards him but in a way I’m sort of glad that my childhood kiss was with someone I’m really good friends with now. Like I said, I’m 16 and I’ve never had a proper kiss and that upsets me a lot of the time. But look at it this way: you are only 13 and not to sound patronising, but you are still really young and lots of people aren’t kissed until they’re a little older, like 14, 15 or whatever. The way I see it, is that because I’ve waited so long for my first kiss and it has yet to happen, I can make sure that when it does happen it will be with someone I really have feelings for as so far, I’ve never felt much towards any of the guys at my school and the only one who’s ever admitted to liking me was someone I couldn’t feel anything for and disliked so why waste time kissing someone who doesn’t matter? I mean, one of my friends has mindless sex with a guy just for the sake of it quite regularly and I can’t help but think it’s so completely wrong to give up your virginity or first kiss for the sake of it. So yeah, stop stressing about it and it will happen eventually. And perhaps if you end up waiting until you’re 16 or older like me, you will realise you can afford to be picky. That’s what I’m like whenever people are like “you’re never gonna get guys if you’re so picky and stuff” and I’m just like “We live in a small town and I have yet to find a guy who makes me feel anything real or special, besides I can afford to be picky.” and then people don’t know how to respond because I have changed so much from the needy 13 and 14 year old I was once and because what I am saying is the truth 😛 Just wait and stop stressing and I’m sure it will happen. THis is like almost a message to my 13 year old self now and I would just want to tell myself to enjoy being your age, because before long things will get messier and more stressful than you ever predicted. Don’t try to grow up too soon and trust me when I say that you are likely to look back on how you are now in a few years time and cringe. That’s life and that’s growing up and that’s okay. Just don’t worry about the kiss because there are so many wonderful things that will happen to you in the next few years and there are so many horrible things that may also happen, so stressing about what hasn’t happened is worthless, enjoy what you have and change what you can and remember that kissing someone who means everything in a few years time is way more special than kissing someone meaninglessly and for the sake of it now.
If you think you’re weird because you haven’t kissed someone by 13, then I’d hate to hear what you think about a worthless piece of shit like me being 26 and never sharing a kiss with someone.
Don’t worry about not kissing anyone. Kissing leads to other things and other things leads to fucked up people messing with your head. Become nuns !!
im 24 and ive never been kissed hugged laid ,no nothing. never had a relationship. social anxiety is killing me from the inside out!