On the inside

on the inside i feel sad and empty i feel like i am a walking lifeless soul. i moved out of my own house to live with a friend and too be in a better place yet the cutting continues and my thoughts of suicide continue. My situation is better yet i still do not feel any better. i get bullied at school and i know others are talking about me which is the hard part to deal with but sometimes i wounder if that is why i am still feeling sad. i do not think much of the bulling but it hurts. I stopped fighting my urges of cutting a long time ago…. i feel worthless and pathetic like there is  nothing left for me to even look foward too i enjoy sleeping and doing nothing most of the time. when i am at school i could act like nothings wrong at all and that i am fine. i have noticed myself automatically saying “‘I’m good” or “I’m fine” i could care less about how i feel most of the time because  most of the time i feel nothing i feel lifeless. I do not know how much longer i want too stick around or if this part in my life will ever get better. I have stopped caring and i honestly do not know what the point is of anything anymore… when i attempt i feel sick for a few days and then i am okay afterwords nothing seems to be working….