Depression: don’t want to deal, don’t want to feel. Nothing. Just want it to go away. Feeling. Emotion. Love. I want to push it out of me. Down some rocky shore. Out into an ocean, an abyss anything to swallow this pain, make it gone, disappear. Be dead.
Not living. Not trying to. Just breathing, just beating, just thinking. Hate and anger. At me. I despise myself. I despise this life, this nothing. This pain. Accepted by no one, loved by no one, am no one. Empty. Shallow. Weak. Where is the purpose to live in that?
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Hey Kimber_10-56,
I’m not sure if you want comments or not? You didn’t really respond to the comments on your previous two posts. What the hell…hahaha First off…nice to see you are still here…and I know that is probably the last thing you want to hear. 😛
Might I suggest you delete your second post or atleast edit it to remove your epitaph. So you are 20 now? Myself I am an old woman that has struggled with Melancholia since birth …among other issues…I have never not been depressed…so when I say I am happy…I am just less depressed…haha As such…I wanted to tell you the thing you really really don’t want to hear. It is still a choice…you have given up and given in…but your reality can change as quickly as your mind can change…you just have to keep changing…that is the trick.
Here if you want to talk…nice ranting btw 😀
Peace
Amakua