A final farewell

I like how I can vent about how I’m going to try and suffocate myself tonight. Nobody on here knows who I am. I have the perfect life. Loving family, no real reason to kill myself. Yeah,but I’m delusional. I Am insane. My parents think I’m the happy perfect child with straight A’s but no,I’m not. I have no friends and I barely am able to get up in the morning and go to school another day. I don’t live,I survive. So I decided to die.I’m not sure if ill go to hell or if atheists are right. I’m a very messed up person. My mother took herself, me, and my younger brother to therapy for the divorce. But I really think that it was just for her. I can’t face my mother, if she even looked at the music I listened to she send me to a mental hospital. Just to make it even more messed up I’m only 14 years old.  So go ahead and tell me that I have so much to live for, but in reality I don’t. I truly hope that my family doesn’t see this.