Death. Must be completely peaceful with no worries just soft waves of pure nothingness, I’m contemplating it once again, 2nd attempt hopefully my last. I want to die so badly it’s like that feeling you have when you really want a new tattoo or a new pair of shoes it’s all you think about that’s how it is for me and dying I want it and I can’t seem to think straight because of how much I want and need death upon me. But as with everything there’s an exception I don’t want death being FAT, I suffer from anorexia, and schizotypal PD and I REFUSE to die fat, so I’ve come to a conclusion: I will stop eating completely and starve myself to death, at least I won’t have to die fat. And it’s a win-win all around. As for now I need to keep myself occupied because idealizing death is so very tempting to want to do it sooner.
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i suffer from anorexia as well and i understand how you feel cause im the same way. i do not want to die fat. but i dont have the will power to starve myself to death. also if you pass out you’ll probably get sent to a hospital and they’d force you to eat and get nourishment so im not quite sure how this’ll work.
i would rather you not die, obviously, thats the right thing to say. but if you will no matter what i or anyone else says i suggest to enjoy it and choose a method less painful. just ask to be cremated so pretty much no one will ever see your dead body.
im here if you ever want to talk, just letting you know.