i wish i were no more.

i wake up thinking about killing myself, i go through the days crying, wishing i wasn’t here. i don’t know how much longer i can deal with this. it’s fucking draining. i think about all the pros there’d be if i were gone; there are hardly any cons. it would just be so much better and easier for the people i care about. i feel like such a burden, i’m a failure too. i’ve been letting everyone down and i’m so sorry. all of my personal issues and disorders are getting worse and i’m scared. i’m so scared. scared of living this life. scared of losing everyone (which is already happening). i’m trapped inside a person that i hate and there’s only one way i can think of that’ll set me free.

the only good thing about today is that i might be getting new, sharp, razors after school…..
what a fucking sad life i’m living. it’s pathetic.