91 Days

13 months ago My Ex-girlfriend of 3+ years broke up with me for another guy.
When your in a relationship for a long time you become disillusioned, you forget that what you and your partner say to each other is just a thing of the moment really. “I will always love you forever”. You forget that things can change quiet easily.
I was pretty devastated at the time and couldn’t get past it.
For the next 9+  months I would be moping around, thinking about her and wishing things would have worked out differently.
For a while I was convincing myself that she was simply going though a phase and that she still liked me and would come back, but at the same time I was trying to move on and meet different people.
This resulted in a bit of a disorganised personality.
At one point she even came to pick up her stuff with her new boyfriend, but I’ll cut through that bullshit.

Eventually I had met a new Girl. Her name was Yuan. And when I did, I forgot all about My Ex.
We had talked for a while over the internet, a month or so, and eventually met up.
We hit it off pretty well, and by the second date I landed in her bed.
Trying to cut through the bullshit, we ended up dating.

This relationship only lasted about 2 weeks. Plenty of time to become disillusioned.
It partly ended because I didn’t get along with her University Buddies.

After that experience I was finding my environment a lot more depressing, I started thinking about my Ex girlfriend of 3+ years again. On top of that, I felt as though my friends stopped talking to me and only approached me when they needed something. They did not want to catch my ‘depression’.

So I decide to leave the country and start new. December 14th 2012.

I moved to Switzerland (yes I speak the language), and am currently living in a small Apartment, looking for a job.
Since moving, none of my friends have  talked to me.
Since moving, I have made no new friends.
Since moving, I still think about my ex.

Its has been 91 days since I left.
I feel as though my mind is far away from sanity.