Hi I’m Ana.
I made an account because this site looked interesting, and I’ve been suicidal for a long time. So while I’m here, I just thought I’d give you some general information about myself.
-I’m 15 years old, and more mature than a lot of teenagers my age.
-Female
-I’m insecure about a lot of things, but one thing about myself is that I’m damn well proud of my body.
-I’m easily angered.
-I don’t share a lot of personally information.
Disorders, Hospitalizations, Self-harm History
Disorders
(None of these have been self-diagnosed)
Mood Disorder (most likely bi-polar)
Anxiety Disorder
Sexual Re-activity Disorder
Anorexia Nervosa
Bulimia Nervosa (Purging type)
Hospitalizations (# of)
(Do NOT ask me what hospitals I’ve been to, because I won’t tell you)
All together I has been hospitalized 6 times due to suicidal ideation, homicidal ideation, and anger.
Self-harm History
Cutting (Currently Inactive)
Burning (Currently Inactive)
Starving myself (Currently Active)
Purging (Currently Active)
Smoking (cigarettes) – (Currently Inactive)
Drinking (Currently Inactive)
Drug Abuse (Currently Inactive)
If you have any questions about any of the information above, message me.
9 comments
i want to know the reasons behind the pain u have in the cuts u made and all the scars u have
what made u do cut, SH , Starving and purging
A lot, actually..I’m not going to put my life story on display, but I’ll tell you some things.
I was sexually/physically abused for most of my life. My moods are constantly changing, which makes a lot of people I know irritable, so I tend to lose a lot of friends. I started cutting when I was 13 out of depression and anger.
I was diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia when I was 14 because of self-esteem issues, depression, and anxiety.
thats a lot i really appreciate your efforts towards life but im sure your life must have a beautiful purpose and every pain has its end
well cutting and sh sometimes become a part of person’s life and its hard to separate it but dont go so far in cutting becuz there will be somebody who wont judge who will just love u for the way u are
Thanks that means a lot to me
what’s purging?
Making yourself throw up
Hi Ana,
I don’t know if you can help me. My best friend has been wrestling the demon for 12 or 13 years. ED (AN and BN – binge/purge type), MDD, sleep disorder, etc. Her BMI is around 13. In and out of hospital and treatment. Anyways, as I’m trying to help stabilize her, I am hoping you can give some advice on how to get her to stop restricting and binge/purging? I have tried some things with varying success. I’m open to anything, really.
I’ll try to help as best as I can.
From my experiences with AN and BN, it’s not an easy thing to “get rid of” or stop, because it has to deal with a lot of anxiety, self-esteem, and also the media has a big impact. Depending on her age, height and weight, her BMI may or may not be dangerous. Some ways to know if a person is losing weight is pretty simple – for example, if they tell you their clothes are getting loose, or if you notice their actual body getting slimmer. My BMI is around your friend’s, maybe a tiny bit higher, but either way it’s low and needs to be noticed more frequently. Anorexia has a lot to do with weight loss and anxiety, just like bulimia. Bulimia though, is definately more damaging to your insides more than any other ED I know of.
Hospitalizations have never worked for me. I’m currently in a clinic for my ED’s, and it’s helped a lot. If your friend has never been to a long-term facility before (like residential), maybe you should talk to her about it or talk to whoever knows about her ED. All I can really say is that you can’t force her to stop. She has to be able to do it on her own, and the best way to help her is just to be there for her.
I wish you both the best of luck.
Thanks Ana. Yes, she’s been hospitalized for her ED and in residential treatment before. Moderate success. Nothing has worked so far for the long-term. While she’s one tough cookie, the ED has beaten her up pretty good (as you know only too well how that is). The weight loss has been pretty dramatic over this last depressive episode, with a suicide attempt thrown in for good measure. Good luck to you too, Ana!