I have a full ******** tank, and a bag, and some duct tape. I am so tired. The meds, the alcohol, and the therapy….no help. I’m 38 and my mother died 3 days ago 13 years ago. I have a 4 1/2 year old son, who I’ll miss the most, but in the end, I’m only going to screw up his life too. I’ve never been able to keep a job for more than 2-3 years. You know, everyone is human and everyone should have compassion for others. I am different, I get that. But, I am intelligent, have a lot to offer, and no one really cares. Goodbye cruel world, I’m leaving here today.
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Well I can’t stop you, we all have to make our own decisions, but your son, you know how many boys grow up without a father as it is? You know how many boys wish they would have had their fathers in their lives, or would have wished to get to know them? Your son will live with what you are about to do forever.
Well…Good luck man.
Interesting you mention your mother mkborris. I think that’s whats keeping me around-my mother. I’m in my 40s and my mother lives with me, she’s elderly and retired. My siblings cannot take her in, they’d make her life hellish too-so I let her stay with me. If she passed away, I don’t think I’d have much reason to live.
I have no kids thankfully but I’ve made many errors in my life, I lived to timidly in some cases, then made bad decisions in others. Unfortunately as I get older, I’m no longer attractive as I used to be when I was younger and couldn’t get a date to save my life, so I have little reason to life. I finally wised up at this age, but lost all the gifts I had in my youth.
I had a good education, but ended up doing lower-level work and it’s been next to impossible to break into something more financially rewarding. I’ve struggled with a lot of personal problems but have realized it’s simply better to end this life. So perhaps once my mother is gone I might follow through.
In your case you have a son, I hope you’re not just going to abandon him to fate. I hope you had the common decency to leave him with a reliable relative who can raise him well.
We all suffer and have problems, but at least you should ‘leave’ when your son is old enough to fend for himself. But I don’t know your situation, I can only hope you make the right preparations for him if you do intend to end your life.
Is the world really wicked?.here you are a grown up man. About to dump his little boy on the hand of fate..and you say the world is wicked. Pls cut the crap sir. If the world is wicked stay with your son and join him to take a stand in this wicked world..very brave of you to even mention that you have a little boy, do you know how many depressed men would give their life to get a glimpse of that light you have.
main reason ill be dying soon lesswill… if it wouldn’t have miscarried I wouldn’t be in the hell im in.. and the worst the you can do for a kid is abandon them
If you think that leaving the world is the best decision, please try to RE-rethink that decision. You said you’re intelligent, but to leave your son to suffer on his own? That’s not just cruel, that’s real selfish. Okay, NOW no one’s really appreciating you and treating you like an actual human being. But let me tell you – YOU GOTTA KEEP FIGHTING. Fight for your life. Fight for your son. People may not care about you but I’m very sure that your son calls you DADDY because he cares and loves you. He – your son – needs whatever you have to offer more than anything else in the world.
It gets better than you would ever know.. We are not always expected to be happy in life..but there are moments we should live for.( pls read the book great expectation and put yourself in the position of the excape prisoner. Who lived a crude life just to see a boy which was not even his son grow to become somebody he wasnt.) there re moments in life that would make our heart swell with pride and our eyes well with tear of joy. Picture that little boy of yours on his convocation ceremony. Putting on all dem big well knitted intellectual graduation cloak or gown. And picture yourself in front watching as he receives his certificates and commendations.. Truth is that you wont live to see what your boy would turn out to be. At this rate. With you going about with them dangerous looking gas tank and mask to plot your own demise.. Cant you see life holds so much for you than most of us here.. And that kid is your trump card.
It gets better than you would ever know.. We are not always expected to be happy in life..but there are moments we should live for.( pls read the book great expectation and put yourself in the position of the excape prisoner. Who lived a crude life just to see a boy which was not even his son grow to become somebody he wasnt.) there re moments in life that would make our heart swell with pride and our eyes well with tear of joy. Picture that little boy of yours on his convocation ceremony. Putting on all dem big well knitted intellectual graduation cloak or gown. And picture yourself in front watching as he receives his certificates and commendations.. Truth is that you wont live to see what your boy would turn out to be. At this rate. With you going about with them dangerous looking gas tank and mask to plot your own demise.. Cant you see life holds so much for you than most of us here.. And that kid is your trump card..
St.lesswill
God speed.
You know what will screw up your son the most? You offing yourself and this following him his entire life. He’ll wonder so many things about you. He’ll long for your presence. He’ll think that you must not have loved him enough to stay and if you didn’t love him, who will? I’m sorry for your pain and I feel this too, but you have a responsibility to raise him and you need to cowboy up to that. Don’t be so selfish that you bring this pain into your son’s life too.
It is truly sad that u wana leave ur son altho u love him. Secondly, u said it urslf! U intelligent n got a lot 2 offer so why mak a waste by leaving ths world??? Clearly u hav identified that u are capable of making it in ths world! Dnt do thngz 4 others,most ppl do experienc not feeling apreciated bt do wat is good for u. As long as u are satisfied and content with what you do then that’s all that matters.
Please re-think your decision. I have had a horrible childhood and upbringing and have attempted suicide twice but I managed to turn it around.
You are so lucky to have a son, I found out I can barely have children and even if I do I can’t carry it or give birth as I have bad health problems. I would die myself just to e able to have my own child, but I have to accept it, that is the thing that kills me most but I still fight and not give up! And your son should grow up knowing his daddy didn’t, his feelings count in this too remember.
What I am saying is your son LOVES you so very much! You are his daddy and what hurts a young boy more than anything would be loosing his daddy. My other half lost his dad young. To this day it kills him and so wishes he could just spend one second with him. And he even gets suicidal thoughts at times because he misses him so much so please think of the pain you will be passing into your son.
Everybody was put on this earth for a reason. You said yourself you are intelligent, there is a whole world out there, take your son and explore it! Clear your head! Start fresh.
Please don’t do this. I nearly died and was in hospital for 6 months. You are still young (I am too lol) and I can guarantee you people do care about you.
I am here for you, don’t give up!
Please don’t do it. You don’t know what might happen tomorrow. Buy a lottery ticket. Who knows. I hold on simply because I don’t know what will happen tomorrow, but it can’t get much worse than today.