So it’s been a while since I’ve posted… Hope everyone’s surviving. Overall, I’ve been ok. Since my last post, I’ve been in therapy to attempt to put an end to my cutting. I had been clean for 3 months. A few days ago I cut for no reason, absolutely none. I just made up my mind and did it. Since then, I decided to ask for an antidepressant and my therapist was all for it.
She said it will be easier to listen to the rational voice in my head, I really hope she’s right. Living has been an absolute struggle. I want to be ok, and even happy if that’s possible. I don’t want to be afraid to live…
I’ll let you know what it’s like to feel “normal” if this medication works, but I’m scared. I’m an adolescent that’s so fucked up already & it can only get worse as I get older.. I never imagined being a 17 year old on an antidepressant to keep me alive…
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i’ve been going through that since i was ten so youre not alone. the only true reason why im still alive right now is because im taking antidepressants too
Thanks. I’m really scared about starting them…