heart to heart

Something similar happened to me. I was drunk. I called this girl beautiful. She was drunk. We were drunk best friends that night hugging and holding. She gave me her number and invited me to her birthday party. The next day i texted an she answered a few times, sparingly, then she disn’t respond ever again. I called a handful of girls beautiful that night i was drunk. Not because i wanted to hit on any of them but because when not drunk i wouldnt have ever approached those girls. One girl called me a little whore because i called her beautiful earlier and she passed by when i was hugging and holding with the girl who traded numbers with me. Eh. Tis life. Ditto on the loneliness only for the most part im aline because im an ass and don’t know how to appreciate or treat friends :L so i shouldnt be bitching. Don’t think in absolutes. Everyone does not have someone to love them or to love. On this site alone there are a lot of people who do not have that. I don’t have much physical contact. The first time i held hands with someone who seemed to care about me…i was in 10th grade i think…it was…nice…ah but it was a lie haha but still….even lies can be sweet. Don’t be down. You are not alone. Someone can and WILL love you. If someone doesnt I’ll stay alive and suffer for the rest of my life as penance for lying :L oh gawd a lifetime of suffering….oh well too late to take it back..