When i was about two years old, my mum left me in a small house with an 11 year old babysitter for a whole weekend to get drunk.
I remember people telling me that i would have been in care if it wasn’t for my Dad, although now that i’m growing into my teenage years he doesn’t pay any attention to me. I live with my Nan and Granddad. My Granddad is maybe the only person i appreciate, along with my best friends. I obviously love my family, but i feel awkward around my Dad, and my Nan’s constantly drunk and angry, and she’s spending all of my Granddad’s money on Carling and cigarettes. I still see my Mum, although i hate going to her house. She’s constantly high on Butane gas fumes and is always accusing me of stealing and lying, which makes life way more difficult at home.
I have ‘talents’, i’m a musician,a writer and an artist, but i can’t really achieve anything because nobody supports me. I would love to become a singer, and i don’t really know a way to become one apart from Britain’s got Talent or X Factor, i see peoples dreams coming true and i really want that, but i wont get any support until i start to lose weight. I am happy when i go to school, my friends all make me laugh and its fun, but i don’t like school work, who does, right?. Yet lately i am struggling to smile. When i come home from school i don’t help myself, there is nothing to do but to sit in my room,i have no friends around the small area i live in and my best friends live on the other side of town. The only people around my area at my age are either slags, chavs or hang around with six year olds. My Mum is currently unemployed and so tries to earn money to pay her rent by prostitution. When i go to her house, she speaks openly about sex and her ‘clients’ in front of me. My little sister still goes there, she’s 9, and i cant wait for her to grow up and realize how pathetic our Mum is, but that’s not going to happen anytime soon. I also want to speak to someone seriously soon, but it may stop her from seeing her Mum, and if she is prevented from seeing Mum, she starts biting her classmates. She has been expelled from two schools so far for biting children so i cant say anything or take serious action. She is so innocent and i love her to bits. I want to stop seeing my Mum but i wont have any way of seeing my little sister. I don’t know what to do anymore
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Im so sorry this all happens to you, you shouldnt worry about your mum if she doesnt worry about you darling. The same for your dad, good thing he was there for you when you were smaller, he probably feels weird now that you are growing up and are starting to mature. Now for you grandmother… maybe you should talk to her, tell her how you are feeling about her doing all this stuff she is currently doing. You should tell her that at her age it doesnt look so appropriate. For your grandfather, make sure you do anything he needs, cause it seems like he has done so much for you. Im happy he does care for you.. Now, for your little sister… never ever leave her side, no matter what… make sure she is always okay. And for you.. follow your dreams! You have so much to offer, dont let it go to waste. Please, do anything you can to help yourself succeed and do what you love to do. <3
i hope this helps, goodluck.
Thank God I never had kids. Somehow I’m sure I would’ve done worse. Like instead of turning tricks to keep booze on the table, I’d have drunkenly burned the house down.
I’m sorry things are totally screwed up for you. I wish everyone in the world could at least get a decent start. But instead all I see is that life appears to be a smelly pile of dog crap.
The first thing you should do is discuss the issue with your grandad and see whether there is anything he can do about it or advice he can offer.
You can break the cycle by looking beyond your surroundings. Psychologically, you have to believe that it is a level playing field because there will be further setbacks in life and you can’t attribute those to an underprivileged background. If you do that, you’ll concede defeat too easily and continuously give up at the first hurdle.
The most widely accepted method of getting yourself out is through education. There is no discrimination because you achieve on merit. You are no different than anyone else, it’s all about preparation. All you have to do is set aside two hours a day and study. Take the initiative to learn new things. Providing that you secure a place, you’ll be able to apply for a student loan to fund higher education and eventually get a good job.
Hey there 🙂 Thank you for sharing your story, it’s hard to get it all out. I can’t exactly relate to the mother thing, but I can’t talk to my dad, but mainly because he’s never around. I strive to be an artist, an author, and a musician too 🙂 but the only support I get is from my friends. I know of two websites (that I’m a member of) wher you can put up your art and your Literature. If you’d like I can give you the links to both of my profiles so you can kind of check out the sites. But only if it helps really. You don’t have to. Anyway, I’m sorry to hear about your family, and just know that we are all here to help you. 🙂