so i have to change my life

i cannot believe who i have become from the day i registered on here, to now. so much has changed. good and bad.
well, lemme point out big events that have happened to me since i last posted.

-when i was 15 i found out i was pregnant.
-the father to be was a DICK.
-he abused me
-unfortunately i lost the baby due to a miscarriage :c

-ive ran away for two days..stupidly came home
-ive been grounded since
-that was 3 months ago n my family has yet to forgive me 0.o

-my sister is uh nicer now. weird right?
-however she still hurts me
-i kick her ass twice as hard for it

-i refuse to be christian.
-dad wants to kick me out because of that
-however he dont wanna be arrested so hes keeping me but doesnt want me..thats nice

-moms grown up!
-shes finally learning responsibility and i much prefer living with her now

-im finally a sophomore in high school
-i joined sp when i was in 8th grade
-ive grown up so much

-school life
-had to switch schools due to being around “a bad crowd” as my parents put it.
-but i have a bunch new friends (x so whatever
-i still yet to learn how to do good in school, i still back talk, i still act out, i am now the person no one wants to fuck with.
-however im gettin better grades but with my parents i dont impress them…

-mental state of mind
-LIFE IS A MAJOR *****
-i still wanna die
-i want the fuck out of my mind to be honest
-i keep having panic attacks like every fuckin day.

-im addicted too
-cigarettes
-weed
-texting
-facebook
-youtube
-sleeping? (x
-not really addicted but i LOVE beer (x

-where im off to?
-fuck if i know apparently i have to “change my life” cause im a major “fuck up” to my parents

-well.
-joined sp nearly 2 yrs ago!! im 16 now. n I STILL HATE LIKE UH EVERYTHING

ok thought id let u sp people know how im doing if anyone still cares. or remembers me?? (: okay whatever there you guys go

if you want to talk to me? id be happy to chat it up(: email me:

hannahschelling.15@gmail.com