Today  I started cutting again (well actually last night). Its like I needed the pain again. Also I’ve researched about suicide methods. I really can’t handle what life requires me to do.
School sucks and I did something horrible that’s probably never gonna get fixed. Even though theres like 10 days left of school I really want it to be over. Maybe its just not for me. I hate being pressured to be something perfect
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The thing is, you are already something perfect. Society, parents, teachers and all are pressuring you to fit the mold. They want you to fit in, to become a doctor, lawyer, engineer, make a lot of money, have a nice house, 2.3 kids, and blend in to society. the way to learn those jobs and have those things is by going through “the system”. That’s fine.
However, you must understand that you are already perfect just as you are. Just sitting breathing is enough. You don’t need to prove yourself to anyone. If you want to do those things society wants you to do, then do it. If you don’t then you’ll have to find another way. Be imaginative, use your brain, have fun creating. But then you’ll have to convince your parents it’s what you want to do with your life. Good luck .. you are perfect. don’t forget that
What’s the point in attaining something that serves only to distinguish you in the eyes of a few and consume your soul along the way? This so called “perfection” does come at a price and quite frankly, I’ve never known such a thing to exist without some sort of trade off along the way. Don’t adhere to another’s sense of perfection; develop one all of your own. Set your own goals and milestones, have realistic expectations and benchmarks to guide you along the way. Most of all, realise that it’s your life. You are the pilot of this formidable A-10 Thunderbolt, you make the decisions on any and all outcomes, and only YOU can define perfection and tailor it to your wants/needs.
Sorry for going full Chair Force on you, and take care out there. 🙂
Also – drop that razor, stow away your research.
what did you do that was horrible if you dont mind my asking