Who honestly gets into a fight over a bag of fucking chips? Me and my family do. I have been living back with my family because I have a medical condition and can no longer work. No work equals no money to pay for my old apartment. After finally earning some money for myself from working the odd nights at my friends hall, all I wanted to do was enjoy a bag of chips that i finally bought with my own money. I bought other foods for everyone else and all I wanted was to have this to myself. Stupid isn’t it?
I go to grab my bag after coming home from appointments and they were gone. I ask who ate it and if they could replace the bag for me. Then right there, screaming match. “the food in this house is for everyone! who the fuck do you think you are?” Okay first of all. My first paycheck I bought groceries for the whole house. Then your telling me that I should fuck off and buy my own food? I couldve just kept my pay and be selfish. Then my mother comes down starts yelling at me too? For what? The reason why my we still even live here is because my mom has been receiving money from the government for her kids. My brother isnt even suppose to be living here and hasnt paid for anything. The money is suppose to be given to the kids. It actually states that. But I let her pay for the rent with the money she gets from me. And I get yelled at for being selfless and and trying to provide through a rough time for me? I am being told my chances for ever walking again are so slim. I have been trying to stay sane. Living with the mother who makes me want to kill myself ever since middle school.Moving out was the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I stop cutting myself and stopped my anti-depressants and passing all my classes. Now im back to the hell hole.
Ive started to cut myself and hiding it from my doctors that i see every 2 days. Hoping that they wont tell me to take off my clothing for exams and see how fucked up i have gotten. Honeslty though, can you believe how stupid this fight started off with? Did i even deserve to have something for myself for once after everything ive been going through? Trying to help them out when i was barely helping myself?
I just dont understand how the stupidest things can make me feel like shit. For thinking that everything I do will always be wrong. Now i want to know if I will be able to take anti-depressants with the medication i receive every day.
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It happens. I had a close call this morning at the gym. I was on a bench and got up to get some weights off the rack. When I came back, this smarmy ************ set his gym bag, bottle and towel on the bench. So I set the weights down, “I’ve got two sets left.” He pretends like he doesn’t hear me while listening to music so I pretend to not see his shit strewn over the bench and proceed to sit down on his stuff. He watched in silence as I did my sets, including the break in between. When I got up again he approached me, plucked the ear buds from his ears and told me I was trying to be a tough guy so I told him to go fuck himself. Plus, I think I got some butt sweat on his towel.
Sorry to hear about your medical condition. It helps to focus on small increments of progress rather than worrying about everything all at once. Life tends to be overwhelming when taken in all at once.
That gave me a little laugh. The whole butt sweat thing. I wish I was able to go back to the gym. 20 years old female who is going through a medical condition. It was so sudden! One night im fine playing League of Legends, next morning im in pain and cant walk. They still don’t know what really happened. I can’t imagine me telling someone off like that.
You sir, are awesome.
I was going to say that it happens, because some parents think they are untitled to everything that is in their house… no matter who bough it and how, because they have provided everything in life (they used to discuss about even a slice of bread over here…) but i have to ask… was it a particularly long LoL session? i’ve read about people getting injuries due to long sitting sessions, even people who have died due to blood clots (feel free not to answer, but it got me curious, as i have close people way too addicted to LoL).
The funny thing about petty conflicts.. is everything. I’m sure there is an element of absurdity in all the little things we get worked up over and it can take the form of relief when you look at life as one ongoing comedy, or tragedy. That we’re probably never going to get right. But that’s not to say there’s no use in trying! How gradual or sudden was the onset of your condition? I’ll be back in a few hours, hope you get to at least enjoy your bag of chips.