You see that girl? She looks so happy, right? Telling jokes, smiling, having a great time and… Dying inside. She’s hurt, And tired. Tired of the drama, tired of not being good enough, tired of life. But she doesn’t want to look dramatic, weak and attention seeking. So she keeps it all inside. Acts like everything’s perfect but cries at night. So everyone thinks that she’s a happiest person they know. That she has no problems and her life is perfect. If only they knew the trust…  :’(
I can’t do this anymore, I really can’t…
I wish I could take the pain away and everything will be fine…
SnowflakeÂ
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i feel the same way.. so tired of this life.. i’m here at office but reading stories on a suicide site.. what the hell am i doing.. 🙁
You seem like a person who is always trying to help and cheerup other people… at least here i’ve seen your posts and they seem very cheerfull and you try to encourage everyone to have strength and see the bright side of things, and that is really nice of you. But don’t be afraid of asking for help for yourself or showing you are not always at your best… strong people also feel bad and need help from time to time you know? even if it supposedly makes them look weak (which is not true).
Each of us are souls on a journey. That journey is what we call life, each of us share that journey and it is never easy. It is full of disappointment, despair, and pain. There are those who are strong and wears a smile everyday to hide their pain. But the pain is very real, your heart hurts and you are crying inside, trying not to let others see your pain because you don’t want to be seen as weak. But that is where the misunderstanding comes in. Being strong means you know you have a problem, and being strong is dealing with that problem in a positive way. I ask of you to continue your strength, and seek help in dealing with it. You are a fighter, and you can do this.
My brother was in a lot pain emotionally too. He was a big strong man, he could physically beat up most any other man if they messed with him. He was often happy, caring, and supportive. He loved his family and he showed it! But he killed himself. He had a front too. If you could have seen the hurt on his children’s faces, his brothers, his sister, and his father; you know that suicide is not the answer. I went years blaming myself, what could I have done to help. I felt like I was a failure. I wanted to die myself!!! He had a lot of pain, but he transferred that pain onto the people he loved. I don’t think that is something that you, or anyone else who contemplating suicide thinks about. I lived it!!!
Remember that all our problems are temporary. What seems to be an overwhelming problem today, will fade into a memory and something else will take its place. There will be good and bad, we have to take the good with the bad. You look like a beautiful girl. So young, so much you can do with your life. Please get help. Please don’t hurt the ones you love. If you don’t do it for yourself, do it for those who love you. And you are loved!!!!
It’s a misconception that everyone is internally miserable and project a facade of happiness to conceal this despair and hopelessness. That’s a projection of feelings, I know many people who are genuinely happy with their life and although they stumble across discrepancy, hindrance and despair from time to time, it is not a perpetual nor quintessential aspect of their life. It *is* possible for a person to be genuinely happy and satisfied, most people *are not* depressed, sad nor have low self esteem. When you surround yourself with constant negativity you begin to acclimate to that environment and when you are no longer within it you resume thinking everyone is similar to what you are accustomed to.
I can tell u r korean.
Thank you everyone for giving me motivation and positive thoughts.
Don’t worry!
Even though sometimes I’m so tired with my life but I’m still survive.
I feel good today & hope everything is good with you too… ^_^