i was caught cheating in school (actually the teacher saw the writings on my hand after the test) and never have i gotten into so much trouble. I told my parents in advance about the thing and they were so disappointed. i know all of these is my fault and my reasons will never be valid.
i just wish the guilt will go away. i have been back to feeling depressed again because its been hell for me lately. its the end of the school year and they’re just dumping schoolwork on us like there’s no tomorrow. then i got caught cheating and i feel worse. i hate everything and i wish everyone would just leave me alone. my friends and i barely talk, my parents hate me at the moment, and everyone in my school think i’m no good. honestly i just want everything to be okay and the only thing that’s making me feel better is cutting. ironic right?
i’m making no sense but i just wanted to let it out.
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it will be ok… im sure
People make such a big deal out of cheating in school. You obviously had read and studied the material and then had the foresight to jot it down on your hand so you wouldn’t forget. I think that’s commendable. How many times had I gone in to take a test and my mind went BLANK. I had studied, I knew it, but under pressure of testing I would always draw a blank. Of course, after the test as I’m walking out my mind would relax,open and the answers came to me. Geesh…crazy.
Thanks for letting “it” out. Nice rant.
When I got my first D in school, I thought my life was over. And I wasn’t even in depression at that time. By now I realized that your school grades are somewhat irrelevant. The only thing you need is a good enough GPA to do whatever you want to do after school: University, College, whatever you like.
Also I wouldn’t be so upset about being caught cheating. Having a conscience is a really good thing, especially nowadays when people don’t care about the consequences of their actions to others.
Your parents don’t see this the same of course! They may know it but they will never tell you that school is irrelevant. They love you and no cheating attempt or bad grade will change that. Being angry at each other is just a part of family life as much as fun and happiness.