Please, I have no reasons for staying alive. The problem is I’m either too coward to commit suicide or too stupid for believing something good will happen to me.
What should I do? I have no real friends, everyone just talks to me when they need something. I’m good at nothing but school, and that’s not even worthy. My parents don’t support me. I feel my life is a waste. I feel like thrash. My only real friend is in a worst situation than me. If she dies, I’ll have no real reason to be alive.
The worst part is how people tell me “You just do it for attention” “You’re not alone”. Then why do I feel so alone? I’m useless. There’s no point in writing this, I think that people will think I’m doing this for them to feel sorry for me, but I really need somebody.
Sorry for wasting your time.
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The thing I like about your username is that you call yourself “TheRoadSoFar” rather then “TheEndofTheRoad”. Are you sure that’s not supposed to mean something . . .?
By the way, we all feel useless (maybe not all and maybe not totally). Welcome to the club. I’m that girl who sits in the corner of the club while watches everybody else though . . . shame.
Many times over people say we do it for attention. I think they either a) don’t know how to respond to a situation, or a [real] strong emotion Or b) it could possibly take attention away from themselves, and people are selfish (sure you’ve seen that already)
May be other reasons to that one too.
Let me tell you one thing, there was a point in writing this, you know why? It took ten seconds (maybe up to a minute) of boredom out of my night.
Hey there, first of all thank you for sharing.
If I may be so brave as to say that your situation seems remarkably similiar to mine. In life I can count my real friends with the fingers of one hand and other people i have contact with fingers of the other hand. Aand yup, we only talk when someone needs something. Ontop of that I struggle with depression, aimless life and a fear of failure. So we have some common ground no?
I can’t really say what’s the right path or goal you should take. I get through the day, the weeks and months in an effort to better myself. Finish my chores and look for something to keep me happy about myself. Be it being toned and healthy or mental fortitude. In the end I only want my smile back and to manage that I need to be at odds with who I am and what I do. I think about how I feel and why i feel the way I do.
So this comes from someone who thinks he’s in pretty similiar situation: You’re not useless, you’ll never be useless nor is your life a waste. Why do I say that? Every breath you draw has more worth in it. Every tomorrow you wake into has it’s potential. Every time your friend asks for something from you. You Are There. Which is in my oppinion is a lot better than judging the rest of one’s life and not being here tomorrow.
Take care of yourself, hope you and your friend get better too.