ill never be able to accept love , i just don’t see how it is possible.I have done so much wrong. He shows me more love than anyone in my entire life ever has and yet all i can think about is jumping off that cliff or slicing my wrists and watching all the pain end, but i know that no matter how much i wish for that I could never be that selfish…..never! Â I have more than so many people in this world so please tell me why i wish of this every night, tell me why that when Someone I finally actually likes comes into my life, my thoughts get stronger, tell me why. I’m so lucky, so loved, so cared about and yet here i sit. I wont do it now but I know one day the regret of the things i have done will drown me and nobody ,not even they boy i love will be able to save me and i feel so horrible that it has to be this way.I dont understand
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Such are the perks of being a wallflower, I suppose.
I’m not sure what else to say. It would appear you have some very big decisions to make in the near future.
Sounds to me like part of you might be scared that the good things you found might end, and as a way of protecting yourself you end up with even stronger suicidal thoughts… it’s hard to trust in people and even harder to have hope that things will last, but who knows, maybe you are supposed to embrace the luck, love and care that you say you are receiving.