I don’t know where life came from, but i know it’s been given to me.
I have feelings, you have feelings.
My feelings sure as hell aren’t deadened, but i don’t care much for my life, seeing as it likes to fuck with me.
But what makes my life worth living, is knowing that i’m in someone’s heart somewhere.
And if i leave this world, i rip that piece away.
Hurting someone that cares for me will probably hurt me more then a final blow.
Even though i won’t even “be” anymore to see them hurt if i’d leave, knowing that is keeping me from making permanent choices.
And somewhere i probably know that things will turn around someday.
But reminding myself that is the hardest of all.
I just don’t want my young son to not have his father, but at the same time is it better for him not to and for his mother to just adopt her guy to look after him. He’s so young, I doubt he’ll remember me, it’s just hard to take the last breath with the vision of that little head with so much potential. Sigh.
I think im taking up space in this world when there are plenty of people who are sick with cancer or something who actually deserve to live.Me what have i done thats so great
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Nothing worth, and its it because I it feels.
I don’t know where life came from, but i know it’s been given to me.
I have feelings, you have feelings.
My feelings sure as hell aren’t deadened, but i don’t care much for my life, seeing as it likes to fuck with me.
But what makes my life worth living, is knowing that i’m in someone’s heart somewhere.
And if i leave this world, i rip that piece away.
Hurting someone that cares for me will probably hurt me more then a final blow.
Even though i won’t even “be” anymore to see them hurt if i’d leave, knowing that is keeping me from making permanent choices.
And somewhere i probably know that things will turn around someday.
But reminding myself that is the hardest of all.
I just don’t want my young son to not have his father, but at the same time is it better for him not to and for his mother to just adopt her guy to look after him. He’s so young, I doubt he’ll remember me, it’s just hard to take the last breath with the vision of that little head with so much potential. Sigh.
i think every life is is intrinsically worth living. you were given it is a proof of that. what we do with it doesn’t matter.
I think im taking up space in this world when there are plenty of people who are sick with cancer or something who actually deserve to live.Me what have i done thats so great