It’s been six months since I last cut myself. I tried to abandon self-harming because my parents threatened me to kick out from the house. I succeed but I just wanna do it again. I feel like cutting myself could ease the pain away again. I’m so fed up with my life. Every time I bottle up my feelings or thoughts, I will be crazy and numb sometimes. I have no one to talk to. When I try, they (family &friends) just turn their backs away from me. They would even call me “attention-whore” although all I really want is to get help from someone (not everyone). Some of my friends tell me I’m gross, attention whore, crazy and psycho because I do self-harm. They don’t really understand me. Even my family. Also, everything is getting worse in my life. I keep on failing although I keep trying my best. So I just wanna cut again because I feel it is the only way out from my problems and negativities in my life. The blood dripping down my wrists symbolizes my problems and the razor/knife symbolizes the “solutions to my problems”. I know this is horribly wrong but I have no choice. I know also people would judge and call me pathetic. Don’t worry, I’ve already told myself about that a million times. I know self-harming also would harm not only my skin but my personality as well. Somebody please help. Please don’t judge.
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I hate that shit, even if people are just trying to get attention why the fuck wont people give it to them. How much louder can a cry for help get than a slice to the skin or a suicide attempt? Why do people have to be so mean?
I am so sorry that you have no support. I just let my son’s friend move in with me. He cut after he got off the phone with his mom. I took the knife, cleaned him up, told him I loved him, and held him for a while. If I could be near you I would hug you until the hurting stopped.
You are not gross and you are not a psycho, you simply do not have good people around you or adequate coping skills to deal with the pressures of your current situation.
All that anyone could ever expect from you is your best. It really isn’t possible to fail if you don’t give up. We may not always succeed at everything we attempt, but they are opportunities for us to learn. As long as we get back up we do not fail.
How old are you?
Even if nobody likes you just know that God loves you and you are in the world because He cares for you! Trust in him.
I read ur comment and I hope u can find the support u need. You can talk to people on this site I find it can help. I can’t talk to anyone I know because id be thrown into an asylum . At least you are doin your best in whatever subject or thing your doin. Hope everything turns out for u