Waiting.

I wait for hours
I wait up all night
I wait
Hoping that someone will be there.
Will be there to help me pick up myself
Help me pick up my broken heart
Help me put it back together for the next day
But alas its like last night
And the night before last night
No one is there for me like I am there for them
I simply cant take it anymore
I have waited far too long and too much
I wait every night until 1-2 am
Then the pain comes
Crushing me
Making me want to die
Why am I so dependent?
Why do I rely on people?
When I know they won’t be there for me?
I wait so much hoping
That someone really meant it
When they said that they would be there for me
But no one meant it
I get people have lives to live
But just once
I don’t want to wait for anyone.
I cant keep waiting like this.
I simply cannot.
Conclusion: I need to die.