Alone… again…

I’ve had a few problems in hand lately and I guess I’ve lost my path again… I had troubles in 6 grade with bullying and family and almost decided to take my life when my purpose in life appeared before me. It’s been 2 years since that and I’m proud to say I’ve been helping people with their problems since then but now, I’m the one that needs help, I’ve fallen right back into the darkness that swallowed me whole. I have to say I’ve killed of the bullying, now it’s just family. Let me explain, I was doing just fine at school, grades above average and also made great friends the have always had my back. One day I went to eat with my mom at the mall and she told me the worst news ever. We are going to move from the country I made my home and leaving everything behind to start again from Zero. Since then my grades have been lowering and I’ve become selfish when It comes to friends ( I tend to hang out with them more now since it’s the last of times I’m seeing them).  I don’t want to sound disrespectful towards my parents in any way, let’s just say if I don’t have good grades, all the trust I build up since 6 grade disappears again. In two weeks from now school ends and I leave, my grades have lowered a lot and my parents have gone back to the way they were before, screaming, swearing, and not believing anything I say. I don’t know why but one comment In particular has stayed in my mind since we last fought. “With grades like this and negative attitude I don’t think it’s worth it to go to your graduation, I don’t even think you will pass!” I guess it just hurts knowing your parents thinks your useless and also not worth of their time. Just like 6 grade I feel alone, with no one to relay on and just sit in a corner and cry for help.

thanks to anyone that read this and I apologize for making long but it feels a lot better to write my story and let everything out…

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