Well, it’s officially clear. I am absolutely worthless and can’t do anything right.
I try to make people laugh, and it is instantly qualified as “begging for attention”, unless someone else does/says it, in which case, it’s hilarious.
I try to help out around the house and I get in trouble for not doing it right and yelled at because I am not my brother or sister.
I try to be myself and I get hated for it.
If I were to list all of the things I did wrong, the list would go on forever. I am a worthless screw-up and the world would be better without me. I am what is wrong with the world. If I were to just drop dead, the world would be a better place and everyone would be happier. It’s about time that I realized that I don’t deserve to live, I don’t belong, and I should just go die.
So, I guess this is goodbye.
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Firstly, you are not worthless. That much is certain. The voices that say, “You can’t do anything right, you’re just a waste of space. Everyone finds you annoying, just make yourself scarce,” are an embodiment your outlook on your current life. Not getting the attention from your parents or siblings can be a very debilitating situation, as it usually diminishes any value of self worth we may have. You are not a worthless screw up, or someone begging for attention. The best advice i can give you is to be yourself. Don’t try to fit in, or “buy” someone’s good graces via jokes or any sort of uncommon behavior. Be yourself, and the right people, will like you just the way you are. Work on some of the things that you’re good at. Do something that you enjoy. I believe that with these steps, you can truly find happiness with yourself, and with those around you.
You are NOT worthless. And anyone who says you are or says anything about you that is cruel, screw them. Screw all the ones who have ever hurt you because you know what? They aren’t worth a second of your attention. You are perfect and don’t put yourself down. Don’t give up. There are people who care about you like me. I personally, even though I don’t know you at all, would be heartbroken if you died because I know that you are worth so much more than what people have said to you. Never let anyone make you think that you are small or that you should act like someone else because no matter what anyone thinks, you are perfect. You are the only you in this world and no one else could take your place. Please don’t give up on yourself, if not for anyone else, do it for me. I’ll always be here if you need to talk about anything.