Hello, sorry to bother you all but I am in need of advice. I honestly don’t know what to do do anymore. I am personally just tired of everything. I do not wish to go on living. I have actually felt this way for multiple years now. I even made a post on here a few years ago. People tried comforting me and saying it would all get better soon. A few years later and I’m still contemplating the same decision.
I’ve been struggling to find a stable job with a reliable source of income. I do not usually feel any emotion. I don’t want to have a family or a wife. I was born with severe asthma and allergies which makes me unable to do a multitude of activities. I even tried volunteering but was turned down. When I’m awake, all I see is pain, hate and misery.
Anyways, the obvious answer has always been to commit suicide. There have always been some issues with that solution that I cannot solve. The big one is my family and friends. I feel my friends would be able to get over it eventually but I’m worried about my family. I don’t think they would be able to get over it easily. I’m afraid they would all blame my death on themselves, which I don’t want. The other problem I faced is that I do not want someone to find me and clean up after me. All of the common suicide methods leave a body and a mess for someone to find.
So here I sit, unable to figure out what I should do. I’m tired of living, there isn’t much here for myself. I don’t want to be greedy on the other hand and force others to suffer just so I don’t have to. If anyone has any input I would appreciate it. Thanks.
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Somone posted about going out via car crash a while back, by just driving into a tree or something, I don’t know if anyone would have the guts to pull that off though. If somone was really desperate, I’d imagine that would’ve crossed their mind at some point.
I am planning to go out by car crash. I am ready to leave the planet but not very courageous. I figure one day while driving I will get impulsive and go for it. At least that is what I tell myself to get through another day
That’s what my last attempt was. I didn’t die though.
I hope you weren’t badly injured
Not in the slightest. I cut my arm up pretty good, but other than some bumps and bruises I was fine. Bear in mind I was traveling at around 110-120MPH when I cut the wheel, flipping around seven times, without wearing a seatbelt.
Wow. That is incredible. Divine intervention?
I fear dying by a car crash would be too messy and may harm others. I also feel like it may not work. Thanks for the suggestion and replies though.
@babelsgate Fact is, every successful suicide will leave a body for someone to clean up, unless you do it out in the woods where you’ll never be found and the animals eat you. If you’re worried about leaving a mess, do some planning ahead of time. There are ways that won’t be gruesome, figure out a way to notify police or someone (mail a letter to the police department a the day you do it) so you can be found shortly after death so you’re not a putrid mess when you’re found. But the most basic fact about suicide is that family, friends, or others who care about you are never going to truly understand why you did it, you will have to be able to accept that. But you can alleviate their questions by writing a VERY detailed note explaining your reasons, and making sure you state clearly that you did it for you, and that none of them were to blame for it. Unless they were, which in your case it doesn’t sound like they were. But if you’re worried about helping them cope, a detailed note or even a video is a good thing. It will never take their pain away, but if you’re clear on why you did it and that you did it for yourself, it’s better than the vague, goodbye cruel world note.
Thanks for the long reply. I’m afraid that even with a long note that my family still wouldn’t understand and blame themselves. Even when I’ve explained most of my decisions in the past they still have a hard time understanding. Sometimes I wish My family wasn’t so great, that way I could just do it without worrying too much.
I dont think theres a clean way to commit suicide,unless theres some drug that can destroy all ur organs from the inside and doesnt leave a trail of blood or mess for people to see.
Euthanasia is pretty clean
N of course, but it is difficult to get.
I think that depends on where you live. It’s pretty easy to get in the U.S., and doesn’t really cost that much.
I thought about self immolation by fire because that might burn away most of the flesh and just leave charred bones. Problem with that is that I’m afraid that if I used too much fuel it may all ignite at once and kind of explode leaving a mess.
Eaten by animals,of course . Theres lots of options,there…I find it fascinating when suicidal people jump in bear or tiger /lion cages…trouble is ,its at the zoo and kids are watchin,and youre def going to get fished out before the predator eats much of you,dead or not…perhaps an area with a lot of known bears or alligators-overdose and lay down
I’m having the same dilemma. Though I only have one person in my life, I love him very much. Even if he doesn’t feel the same I can’t bear for him to see me that way.
Pigs eat people ….sharks…guess youd need a helper to dump you over the side of a boat after death for sharks unless you are willing to drown yourself….I always imagined that would be a wretched feeling myself…ive heard it said that its a peaceful feeling,but that seems contrary to the panicking that your body will do upon inhaling water..