Life is nothing but a series of comic fuck ups and disappointments, its like its just waiting for you to want something before it screws you over, u make every step forward that you can, you get everything under controll and one thing just comes along and puts you back to square one. The one thing u want more than anything else is dangled infront of you but u don’t get it. U get to be close enough to breath in its scent but u cant touch it. U get to be right beside it but u might as well be a million miles away because that’s as close as you’ll ever get. Life just wates for you to want to fight for something before it really goes to town on you. You want someone and life puts everything it can in ur way, people who u can never stand a chance against. Life is nothing but a cruel joke. The only way through it is to be so numb and apathetic that you can trick yourself, if only for a short while, into believing ur not hurting, ur not a fuck up, ur not pathetic. I tried to get beyond the apathy and numbness, silly me. Now ive to go back to apathy. All i want is that bottlle of JD sitting in a press. Just sitting there, unopened, untouched. No one would notice it missing, its just sitting there begging to be drank, i know i shouldn’t but i know i will
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Alcohol is never an answer. It only creates more problems
Drink enough of it nd ull forget the problems
bro sucks to hear it aint going your way 🙁 you STILL got this though man. i know u do. look in the mirror right now and tell urself the truth that ur the fucking man. that you’ve got it in you to keep fighting. that, yeah the JD is there and calling ur name but ur not a ***** *****–u don’t need shit other than ur own inner strength to pull through this!!!! nothing else but ur own resolve. ur own will to stand up and scream no more and go out there and show life who can hit harder!! it’s not how hard you hit!! it’s how hard you can get hit, get up, and keep on going!! that’s what makes a winner. fuck that!! in my books ur a champ and u don’t need to prove shit to
anyone least of all a ***** that doesn’t see ur true absolute value. damn straight. I mean it go to the fuckin mirror and tell urself ur the pimp and king you are. no more beating urself up over this broad. u got this. *strong pat on the back* fuck yeah!!!
@kills im at the stage that if something in my life did start to go right id genuinely have no idea what to do with it. IM giving up on her. There’s two guys better suited that she has feelings for, i know when im beat. I just have to finish turning off any emotions and get re ajusted to being alone, ive done it before. Over time reaching a state of apathys gonna be like flicking a ligiht switch. Lol ive spent the last year trying to look into a mirror without being disgusted at whats there, ill let you know when i get there. I ain’t going for the jd, it only makes me more emotional which is not what i need, i wont be its ***** bro! Its just… This time of year is difficult for me, its my birthday in like ten days. Always hate that, but this years 21, i swore blind for years id never reach it. And this year ive not gone forward but backwards. All i can hope for is that apathy and numbness gets back here before the 29th. Thanks for being here bro, appreciate it.