Well, he’s gone. I can’t say much about this, just in case someone who knows me stumbles across this website, they would be able to tell that it’s me. So… the struggle it is to talk about my feelings. The love of my life is gone, and isn’t coming back for months. No more constantly texting him, or sneaking out to see him. Only a couple pictures, his stuff that he gave me, and memories. I just can’t believe the moment where he had to leave, came so soon. He made me so happy. I no longer feel the need to move, eat, or take care of myself. I have the urge for self harm. I feel the urge to shut people out of my life again. I didn’t even properly get to say a proper “bye”. We agreed to not say bye, because he is coming back but I didn’t even get to say a proper “talk to you later” or “see you later”. Sometimes, I just wanna die.
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You said they are coming back eventually. What about skype? If there’s no commuication at all I can tell you I do understand. My husband is in prison for twelve years. The first two I wasn’t abke to see him at all cuz I’m a felon and prison doesn’t allow current felons within five years to visit even thouh we are married. And we had a four month old daughter. So yeah I get it. She’s almost three now. I got thru it. You will too.
Yes, they are coming back eventually. And Skype really isn’t an option as of now.. I do admit, that yes, you do have it worse than me, for we have little communication. Thank you, for still not judging me or tell me I’m just complaining. We have letters for the next two months, and then texting the next two. But I’m just going to miss seeing this person, and hearing their voice, and their overall presence. Which you can obviously relate. And I’m really sorry about what happened to you guys, but the good thing is you got through it and I wish you guys have a really good life together with your family.