strengt subsided pain took over

Two month going strong. To months I had enough strengt in me that i could actually feel, but it was slowly deteriorating with every little thing that happened it took a little bit of stength away till i finally hit my breaking point. The point where all the pain caused me to go numb. I needed to feel something. Love wasnt gonna happen happiness was a long way away sadness has been around to much and decided to go on vacation. Even my good friend fear wasn’t around. My best bet was pain. As i sit in a room only dimly lit only by the light of my clock, I watch the blood flow down my pale arm quick like a crimson river in a snowy mountain. I cut again to feel the only thing i deserve to feel. Pain.