End it all

Sometimes I want to end it all

Sometimes I want to die

Sometimes I want to run away from life

Sometimes I want to join god

Sometimes I want to go visit my grandpa

Sometimes I want to cut myself deeper taking the risk

But then I think of all the people who care

All the people’s hearts I would scar

I can’t be selfish because I want to end it

I don’t want them to cry

I stay because I don’t want them to feel my pain

I have pain that they don’t need cast on them

I’ll take everything because I love them

I can try to convince myself that they will be better off without me but I know I would only be lying to myself..

Last night I made fresh cuts on my arms that are bright red right now..

Some friends noticed and questioned I blamed it on my cat..

I don’t cut deep, I barely cut

Its a lesson my loves don’t do something you’ll regret.. Don’t end it all please for me?

Stay beautiful Love ya