Last monday marked the year mark since I tried to commit suicide, it’s been a very hard three years, somedays I just break down crying wondering how I ever got to this point in my life. I’ve been this way my whole life, I can remember suffering with depression as a child waiting to grow up thinking I would grow out of this. Thinking that the heavy sadness I felt was just a phase. It’s a sadness that has taken over my life and i wonder how different things would have been if only I had, had the courage to seek help when I was […]
Maybe apart,
But you’re in my heart.
Far, far away,
Yet here to stay.
You complete my soul.
You make me whole.
This poem’s for you.
My soul mate so true.
I love you my dear.
I so wish you were here.
🙂
Hello, I goggled I want to cut myself tonight to try and stop myself from slicing up my thigh. My boyfriends laying in the bed next to me while I’m crying my eyes out asking “what can I do”, nothing and then I tried to talk to him an he said you always get like this last night I cried after I had sex with him but I say this with all my heart someone that has never known depression will never know, he doesn’t know. My mother died of cancer when I was nine my father remarried a women a year later with 3 […]
to try to open up to her? Like seriously, I asked her about it, but she had no interest at all to talk about it. “I don’t want to talk it.” I hate you, whoever told me to do this 🙁 She was nice about it though. She wasn’t upset or rude or anything, I guess she just thinks I’m not the person to talk to about stuff like that.
Btw, I asked our running instructor for her email, and she emailed me her skype account and we chatted a few times over the last few weeks. I have no idea how she thinks about me, […]
Okay so I’m literally not joking when I’m say: My family is planning my life. No arranged dates or marriages (hopefully never) but they planned which college I’m going to, what my major will be, where I’ll go for grad school, my job my life my EVERYTHING. I never get a word in MY life.
I just wanna do what I wanna do. Sure I might not get well paid, but at least I’ll be happy. I mean, I’ll be spending most of my life doing my job, right? Then shouldn’t it be a job which I’ll be happy doing? I mean, what’s the point in […]
I don’t like to talk on the phone, just text, and I love sending pics! I have so many of all kinds, funny, depressing, everything.
email me tawneesmommy@gmail.com
I am often lonely if I’m not at work
i got depressed and binged drank for almost 5 years and ruined my relationships with everyone i know….iam 27 and my health feels messed up from all the drinking..i can only breath out of one nostril at a time now and i dont really want to be here anymore….my family just watched me crash and didnt do anything to try and stop me….or help me…and now i repeat the same thing over and over about how i ruined my life…and they say its annoying….
i had a mental breakdown and was put on meds……. and while i was on my 5 year bindge i made a […]
I’m broken, I have been for so long… but I really feel it more than ever. Which is strange because I should feel happy, our family dog was missing for weeks and was found safe and returned last week, I finally got a job after so long of searching that i started today, my college graduation is this week, and yet… it all feels pointless.
I feel worse than ever and I’ve felt so bad before, I’ve come so close to just trying (and succeeding) in ending […]
I’ve never been the kind of girl that you would look at and know deep down she wants to kill herself. I got straight A’s, was social and love to perform in front of people. I guess I always have struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts though. To me it has always been a matter of when I would do it. I guess in the back of my mind I have always known that something was wrong with me when I would have to fake laugh with my friends but at any given moment I could have just stopped and been emotionless or when I […]
I hate how I’m in so much pain the muscles on my body are so tensed n I can’t even relax now I’m stuck in a loop of pain n misery my spine need to get better if not I will be in pain forever I don’t want that. I’m tired all the time I don’t like to be in so much pain I feel like I’m never going to get any better my spine n back are messing up my whole body n the bones everything is different my neck is forward but twisted the muscles are so everything is such a bothersome for […]
I didn’t do it, I never will hopefully.
While I do think that suicide should be a human right, I can safely say that unless I was unfortunate enough to be diagnosed with some
sort of horrible disease I don’t think I will ever kill myself.
🙂
Sorry for wasting the time of anyone who read the original post.
Peace and Love to you all.
🙂
my mind is racing with all kinds of negative thoughts. therapy is getting hard and heavy. been feeling physically sick with the stress. i am in a very fragile state. been stirring up the shit in therapy and something big is lurking just below the surface. i don’t know what it is but i can cry at the drop of the hat. i am supposed to be trying hypnosis but at the moment it terrifies me. i am scared . something momentous is going to happen and no one outside of therapy knows it. i am withdrawing from family/friends because i just don’t want to […]
the past few years have been shitty for me. my best friend committed suicide july 30 2013 with a shotgun to the head in his bedroom. i was with him the night before and i feel that i couldve done something. as time passes i feel more and more compelled to do it myself. my life is a waste, i cant get further ahead in my career because the college education i have isnt enough which is the result of the economy and unfortunately i cannot make more than minimum wage. thats just the way it is. no one can get benefits anymore, and i […]
I am an American currently living in England as a part of the United States Air Force. I’d really like to talk to anyone that is/was a cutter. Nothing personal I swear. Just a few really quick questions. I can email or use KIK or Viber. Please leave a comment if you feel comfortable talking to me. I just really need some advice :/ Thanks
I feel better than I have in weeks. Still nervous and worried but I have a smile on my face. I am finding it difficult to focus. I’m finding it difficult to go on in certain ways. I need to figure certain things out. Maybe this isn’t what I’m meant to do in life. maybe I should run away. I’ve always wanted to run away, like Holden Caulfield. I think I should give this life a try and then see if I still feel the same in a few months.
I’ve gained some weight and I’m still getting use to my body. It feels like it […]
I love it. it’s legal and makes me sleepy and high as hell depending how much little pink pills I take. just three enough to make me not walk straight and see things moving that aren’t… I hope they slowly kill me
I’m old, sick, and alone and I’m going to do it very soon because I found out that I happen to have the right combination of pills to take with alcohol. I’ve had a hard life but all you kids who are thinking of doing it need to realize that you will go through life and have hard times and good times. Things do get better until you are old, sick, and alone. That’s when you have the moral right to do away with yourself! I’ve been homeless in my 50s and still didn’t do it then. My ex husband tried to get me to […]
Seriously. I’ve tried and failed to take my own life, and my family will hurt less if I get “murdered”.
I’m in California. You’d think finding a way to “accidentally” die here would be easier…
So I posted my life story and some of the main reasons I want to die A few hours ago and ive never been able to tell anyone about any of that, well most of it.
I really want some feedback.
At least confirm that youve actually read it.
Thanks
Im sad and angry. Very much of both.
I toy with the idea of taking the life of some motherfucking douchbag that doesn’t deserve the life they were born into. But I cannot do it.
It angers me that someone so pure at heart can get the shaft and be born to a broken home and ya ya blah blah blah boo hoo etc, yet some fucking foul piece of shit can have it all; loving family, high metabolism, a perfectly not undersized manhood, opportunity.
God is cruel.