i got depressed and binged drank for almost 5 years and ruined my relationships with everyone i know….iam 27 and my health feels messed up from all the drinking..i can only breath out of one nostril at a time now and i dont really want to be here anymore….my family just watched me crash and didnt do anything to try and stop me….or help me…and now i repeat the same thing over and over about how i ruined my life…and they say its annoying….
i had a mental breakdown and was put on meds……. and while i was on my 5 year bindge i made a music page and drunken rapped and had the whole town laughing at me as if things couldnt get any worse, i beat up a retarded guy who was my roomate because he kept doing gay stuff……Rock Bottom….
and i was forced to roomate with the guy because my mother came home married with a guy i never met…which is the reason i started drinking in the first place
and sadly all of this is true…..real stuff… so yeah death doesnt really sound so bad at this point in my life.. much more has happend but i wont waste your time with all of it……