I haven’t been here in about a week…mainly because I was feeling pretty good. A good level place. Today I was running on pure hyped up energy. Haven’t been eating all to well…and today I feel…too good. Does that make sense? Have you ever felt that way? I seriously feel like I’m climbing up a really tall tree right now. I keep looking down and seeing how far I’ve gone but keep going higher. I have the shakes. Nervous laughter keeps bubbling up my throat. I’m home alone and find myself moving from room to room because sitting in one place doesn’t feel good….even though I DO actually feel good. I wanted a bath because my body is so tired, but relaxing doesn’t seem possible.
God my brain is just in a spin. I’m so afraid for the descent. I start my new job on Monday. I want to feel permanently good.
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Have you been tested for bipolar disorder?
No offence, but permanently good? A lofty goal. Not even sure any religious figure did feel permanently good. Maybe you feel nervous about Monday?
A week of feeling pretty good is great stuff. I’m jealous! ????
🙂