For the past year everything has been going wrong. I keep falling down deeper and deeper, I don’t even know what the light of hope looks like anymore. My senior year was supposed to be my year to shine but it wasn’t, from start to end everything screwed up. Apart of me feels like god has really forgotten about me this time, of everything that has happened I have the need to look past him and wonder if I should even question his existence. In September, a month after school started I got into a school bus accident with an eighteen wheeler, I got seriously injured with my back and neck i even started getting anxiety attacks and blacking out till this day I attend physical therapy. Then in December I got kicked out of my parents house and they lost total care about me, I had to move in with my boyfriend with a threatening father real big bully; always a serious man very scary seems like the type of person to beet anyone even a girl if you upset him. On top of it the mother was just as crazy with 6 kids all from the same crazy father..but still it was a home to live in and regardless of the situation I was greatful. But soon after six months of taking the verbal abuse from this family me and my boyfriend moved out with his cousin. Finally thinking life was turning around for us we had to move out again, everything was so depressing and stressful. I was barely passing my classes I wasn’t sure if I was going to graduate I couldn’t go to prom because prom cost money, money I had to put for bills for a house I had to leave shortly after. I couldn’t even come up with the money for my cap and gown, barely making it by I passed and graduated but I couldn’t walk the stage with my classmates of 12years . Something always gets in the way of registering for college my financial aid money got frozen they won’t give it to me because lack of proof that I was living off of my own income and not my parents then I lost my social and birth certificate and now I find out today that the house my best friend was so kind to let me keep my things in which was her place got evicted and didn’t tell me a thing and now all my stuff is either stolen or trashed by the landlords. I’ve hit rock bottom I don’t have anything or anyone I’ve lost literally everything and I don’t know what else to do but give up I don’t have anything to fight for because its all gone away
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Don’t you dare give up! You have to keep fighting. Don’t let all those who pushed you down win. God is giving you a chance here, because he knows that if you fight, you will become stronger and more wise than anyone you have ever known. After you work so hard, just to watch everything gets torn down, it is difficult to want to get back up and keep going. Even if you feel alone and at the bottom of everything, even if you feel God has lost hope in you and you lost hope in God…. Please know that I, some random stranger on the internet, support your fight and I am a confident believer that you can turn all this around…. Imagine telling your kids and grandkids when they get down about your life story. That would be some real inspirational stuff right there. Imagine how happy you could be once you finally climb that exhausting mountain you have been since your senior year….
If you don’t want to be a stranger, or just need support or someone to talk too, add me on the kik app at “Streletzky” without the quotes or add Nicholas Streletzky Bishop in Facebook. Never give up the fight unless you are happy with your life. At that point you will know it was all worth it 🙂