when the ground leaves your feet

For the past year everything has been going wrong. I keep falling down deeper and deeper, I don’t even know what the light of hope looks like anymore. My senior year was supposed to be my year to shine but it wasn’t, from start to end everything screwed up. Apart of me feels like god has really forgotten about me this time, of everything that has happened I have the need to look past him and wonder if I should even question his existence. In September, a month after school started I got into a school bus accident with an eighteen wheeler, I got seriously injured with my back and neck i even started getting anxiety attacks and blacking out till this day I attend physical therapy. Then in December I got kicked out of my parents house and they lost total care about me, I had to move in with my boyfriend with a threatening father real big bully; always a serious man very scary seems like the type of person to beet anyone even a girl if you upset him. On top of it the mother was just as crazy with 6 kids all from the same crazy father..but still it was a home to live in and regardless of the situation I was greatful. But soon after six months of taking the verbal abuse from this family me and my boyfriend moved out with his cousin. Finally thinking life was turning around for us we had to move out again, everything was so depressing and stressful. I was barely passing my classes I wasn’t sure if I was going to graduate I couldn’t go to prom because prom cost money, money I had to put for bills for a house I had to leave shortly after. I couldn’t even come up with the money for my cap and gown, barely making it by I passed and graduated but I couldn’t walk the stage with my classmates of 12years . Something always gets in the way of registering for college my financial aid money got frozen they won’t give it to me because lack of proof that I was living off of my own income and not my parents then I lost my social and birth certificate and now I find out today that the house my best friend was so kind to let me keep my things in which was her place got evicted and didn’t tell me a thing and now all my stuff is either stolen or trashed by the landlords. I’ve hit rock bottom I don’t have anything or anyone I’ve lost literally everything and I don’t know what else to do but give up I don’t have anything to fight for because its all gone away