I’m trying to stay grounded, to not let this silly thing get to me, but I can’t. Writing is the only thing that is keeping me from hurting myself and even then I struggle to find my words. Everyone keeps telling me the same thing, that this guy was a douche or some other name, but I want to know why such a nice guy would say the cruelest thing to me the morning after such an amazing day. I was blind sided I thought things were going well he was sweet and never rude to me until this morning. I want to know what I did. I want him to tell me to my face why he doesn’t like me anymore because last night it felt like we were the only two people in the world. I want to know what happened in those few hours after I left that made him say such cruel things to me…. no one deserves that not even me… or maybe I do who really knows. All i know is that now I will never be able to go anywhere or do anything without worrying that I smell bad…
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People can say and do cruel things and it does hurt…God I outta know that with some of the stuff I’ve had said and done to me. It’s him though NOT you…his character has a rotten stench about it.
He may not be a bad guy, but the least he could do is level with you. It’s easy for those of us who don’t know him to make a quick judgement call based on what you’ve told us, but the truth is we don’t know him. And you may never find out the truth. The fact is he’s still young, and the reasons could range from any number of reasons. (Just wanted sex, afraid of commitment, doesn’t want to be tied down, wants to see other people, he’s afraid to be hurt, you came on to strong, you told him you loved him) I mean he’s at that age where he should be ready for a serious relationship, but may not be yet. However I have to think if he was mature enough for that, he should be mature enough to tell you the truth. Unless of course he did, but unlikely.
The fact of the matter is he hurt you, and there’s no answer anyone can give you that will undo the damage done. My heart goes out to you. Give yourself time to heal and get back out there. Don’t let this guy keep you from meeting the right guy. I promise not all of us guys are bad, just most of us. lol 🙂