To have thought that I would ever ever be understood. Even by those closest to me. All those times that I keep allowing people to lead, to take decisions, to be unreasonable when things are not ok with them- not for once will it be reciprocated. It is a myth that people understand people, it is a myth that people are so close that they ‘get’ one another. No one understands anyone. That is the truth. One single truth. And everyone is there for themselves, convincing you how right they are, defeating you with their logic. At that time it does not matter how many times you pushed logic aside to comfort them, to listen to the same story a thousand times to give them peace, to have gone through hell yet never spilled anger/frustrations/ sadness on to them. When things you did not say or mean directly or indirectly are taken against you. It hurts like hell. It physically hurts so much.
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I care.
I don’t know how to feel anymore.
Wow. I wish I could convey to you the lessons I have learned about the discrepancies between what people perceive/ say they “are” and who they “actually” are. I, personally, have found that the majority of people — myself included — are clueless about their true place within reality. It is a complicated process.
Then again, because it is so complicated, there may be a moment in time which allows us to redefine ourselves in our own terms.
Just a thought.
DW