When you dream of you cutting your arms and their never going to stop bleeding and then you step into that bath filled with cold water wearing that white dress and dreaming that you will never belong in this world but in the end why is there so many people that care? Why is it that people feel the need to be there for you when you know your not worth it? Why is it that you feel like you can never let your self live a bit? Why is it that you want to let someone know your deepest secrets but your scared they will turn away from you and never come back that they will never look at you the same way as before? Is it just to hard to feel that love that people want you to feel that they are always going to be there but to you, you know they will just go in the end.
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I have the same dream. Wearing a bloody white dress and floating into another dimension
I let a few people who are close to me know about my deepest secrets. My friends ignored them, shrugged them off like they were nothing, and acted like they had easy solutions. My boyfriend left me beause of one of them: I’m suicidal. According to him, I am “weak” and “no one wants to be with a suicidal person”. I feel like it is my fault that he left me though, because I had mentioned suicide to him more than a few times. What sucks is that the few friends that I have are my online friends, and that I only knew my boyfriend online.
Email me at andrewholstein1@gmail.com?
I’d like to be your friend. 🙂
It’s not my place to say but your boyfriend is a dick, and so are the friends that don’t want to know your problems. However you seem like an alright person and suicide is harder than anything but it’s harder than anything to not accomplish it but all I’m saying is suicide thoughts isn’t your fault I promise you that
Hi, my email is at andrewholstein1@gmail.com
I know how you feel and I want to be your friend…I need one and you need one too. Please? I’d like to be your friend. 🙂
My kik is at Kalmahavak if that helps too. 🙂
My comment was directed at @brink of dawn