HELP ME

I am very sorry for what you are going through. I could tell you that there are things coming out of your mother’s mouth that are in fact the alcohol talking, not her. But that won’t help you. I’ve had to come to terms over the years with the grizzly fact that I am still responsible for what I do whether or not I am under the influence of alcohol or something else. Your mother has no right to tell you such disgusting and self-serving things. She is only trying to make herself feel better at your expense and it is nothing more than complete bullshit.

This is some horribly awful stuff for you to deal with at such a young age and you deserve so much better. You deserve to be loved, respected and cared for. Please don’t believe one bit less than that.

I sense that you can be very strong – so please try and love yourself and use some of that strength to concentrate on what you need and want most. And on ways to get where you want to go. If it takes getting out of an abusive home into another place – and I do know how frightening that thought can be – find someone you can talk to about how abusive your mother is and get some help. Seriously, your mother needs help too but right now you need protection from her.

I am just feeling that you need to be away from her and in a safe home with people that will care for you, make sure your needs are met and that you are in an environment where you can continue to grow emotionally without someone vomiting their drunken frustrations all over you.
Just care for yourself first and find the right kind of help to get you through this.

– peace