It started out with being fired and then it went to trying to come off paxhell! Rapid heart beat…hospitalization for the first time for panic attack. Its been a slow downward spiral for 6 months. Two days ago i realized all this pain is my fault and i can’t take it anymore. I can’t take the ocd and the guilt, the derealization, the pills. I can barely hold down my job. Im afraid im going to give up. I can’t take it. Waiting to see this specialist and this specialist. Im so embarrassed but i dont have the energy to wait anymore. Im so tired and its all my fault. I just want to sleep and i cant even do that.
I don’t know how much longer i can hold out.
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derealization sucks – just take it one day at a time, that’s the only thing I can do to get through sometimes. I wish you the best because you sound like a decent person.
x11hgseeker,
Things are obviously difficult for you right now, but I hope you will hold out until you see your specialists so you can learn what your options are. There may be some sort of help available. Best wishes.
L4Y