My wife committed suicide. No warning. My mum committed suicide. My brother died. I have nothing. My mum was ten years ago, my brother five. My wife one month. I have a father I don’t talk to. I have nothing. I have fantasies everyday about killing myself and having the same funeral as my wife but it turns out I don’t have the balls. All I think about is killing myself. I am going to goto the doctor and get stilnox or tamazepan. How much do I need? Please help me get out of this easily. I’m 30 and just live to die
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Wow, that’s a horrible burden to live with. I hate that you have that pain. May I make a suggestion? Before you go, honor your wife in some way. What did she care about during her life? Any causes, any charities? Think of one and spend the next 6 months, at least, volunteering in some way to that cause.
What if your wife had told you in advance that she planned to kill herself. What would you have said to talk her out of it?
It may seem like you have no one, I’ve been through this a year ago when my older brother chose suicide.. You’re never alone. You’re going through a hard time but it won’t last forever. Like the comment above suggested id say do the same. Instead of doing as they did, work and tell people why they shouldn’t choose that path. There is also suicide prevention walks (I’m doing one this coming weekend) this takes so much off my mind and help Me realize I’m not the only one who has been through this feeling. I really hope things get better for you.
Well I have to say you have it pretty rough with all this Loss of loved ones. That is not easy to deal with. When I was 11 my uncle killed himself buy drug overdose. My Grandad died of Cancer when I was 16. Those were the first 2 loses of my life and others have passed away since then and I have friends who have died also. Loss can be rough. But think about you. Your still alive.
You could pull it together. I know it will be rough not really having any family left, but you still could go on with your life. If I were in your shoes I would try something radical. Like sell everything you own and take the money you have left and go backpacking across Europe or go visit some other part of the world you never been to and just take up residence. Go live in some small community in Peru and live a simple life. Do something like that. Go on some big adventure where you just leave where you are and go explore the world. It will get your mindoff your losses and open you up to new lifestyles and adventure. Or go live up in the mountains somewhere or join some organization like the peace corps > they will take you to interesting places and you can help other people out. Building homes or feeding people
do something like that. I bet your wife would love to know that you found the strength to carry on after her passing and went off and did something adventurous, and or something good for the world.
Poocho,
First off, I am very sorry – I cannot imagine experiencing the amount of loss you have endured.
Overcomer72’s suggestion is terrific – perhaps try something extreme or out-of-the-box, such as going to a different part of the world. You never know what you could find out there.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)