I used to have faith of some kind (no specific religion; I considered myself to be Agnostic) but after having experienced life and seeing so many horrible things, I no longer believe in a “higher power”. The chaos of life and the fact that there is no control and ultimately no consequences for the vicious acts that humans carry out every day is terrifying. I often find myself cursing at God and then reminding myself that no one can hear me.
With the exception of going to work, I live my life in absolute isolation because I don’t trust anyone (twenty some odd years and I haven’t met one person I trust) and it is getting to be too much. I’m too much of a coward to take that final step over the edge but I can’t take the autonomy anymore either. I wasted years praying for an answer only to hear the silence in return.
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Are you familiar with the concept of original sin? It’s the concept that all humans are born with innate evil in our very essence. It’s a blemish on our soul that drives us to follow our free will right into the devil’s hands.
But not everyone is all bad.
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I’m here and although I tend to spout some pretty vile stuff. Most of the time I want everyone to be happy. Do you trust me enough to be an anonymous internet friend Wilt?