im carrying a corpse

at least thats how i feel, this is probably selfish, if not mean of me to even think, but hes wrong. everything is always worse to begin with but it can get better. if he isnt willing to get help hes gonna end up putting a weight 10x the one hes scared of on everyone’s shoulders. he won’t get better till he gets help. and until then hes a corpse waiting to happen. i need him to get help. i had to do it when i felt like i couldn’t. he’ll always feel like he can’t until he does. once he does he’ll see the need to. his family can’t feel the weight yet but i can. i can’t carry a dead body forever. i need him to get the help he needs to bring it back to life. cause were on a cliffs edge and my knees are buckling. it won’t just be me carrying a corpse then. it’ll be my family too