Loneliness is a disease, you see, i have a son, I’m divorced but i see him every week, my parents are dead but I have 3 brothers, they love me and care for me, and I love them, and I love my son, and I’m happy when we are together, but I feel so desperately alone, all the time I don’t think I can relate to anyone anymore, I left my ex-wife because I felt alone and sad with her, but I still feel alone without her, when I’m not working and alone in my house, I do nothing, I watch movies, I eat, but that’s it, I don’t call anyone or visit anyone, I hate to think about how much I’m a burden, the last few months I’ve been thinking about ending my life, I guess all that is keeping me from killing myself is my son, and his smile, and his sweet voice, and the knowledge that he needs me… But for me, I think life has ended, I have nothing to live for except for my son, I’m so empty inside…
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I don’t know how old your son is but he does need you, it would be the worst thing for him to lose you it this way. I know how hard it is to find something in life, to feel lonely and empty; I have little myself, but remain hopeful. You love your son and look forward to seeing him, abeit, once a week, but I bet he looks forward to seeing you as well. As time goes by and he becomes more independent, your relationship with him will grow, please don’t miss this. With so much love, brothers/son, it really would be sad to end your life.
It is good that you recognize a reason to live. Your son very much needs you in his life. Loneliness and isolation can really rock you to your core. That I know from personal experience. The isolation got to me enough that I found myself in a bad situation a few years ago. Perhaps it’s a good idea to speak with someone? Maybe they can provide a little help. If your employer provides an Employee Assistance or counseling line, that could help, too. Don’t tell yourself that your life has ended. While there are no guarantees, and it will take time and effort, things might slowly but surely improve. Think about it.
the internet has a lot of good interactive communities, that’sa good place to start. also jobs working with kids or the elderly help a lot with loneliness.