Another beautiful evening in my family. As usual, my dad threatens to kill himself, and my mother says he can do it, because she can’t take it anymore. After that, he turns violent and starts smashing things… It’s a mystery to me how he managed to smash so many things in so little time… Tonight is different though… He’s serious about commiting suicide… And quite frankly, I don’t give a flying fuck anymore… Go and hang yourself, you pathetic drunk asshole… Old violent and manipulative ************… He wanted my mom to have an abortion when she was pregnant with me, then, he rejected me as his son for the first years of my life, saying I was the son of someone else, and calling my mother a whore and the likes… He was never there for the family… Now the old fuck is unemployed and living from my mother’s wages and my student cash. He doesn’t try to get a job, he doesn’t want to. He never took me places and played with me like other dads did with their little boys, except when my mother was screaming at him to get me to some air. He was never close to me, and never listened to my problems when I needed him most. Most of my memories about him from my childhood are with my mother searching for him through every bar in town, eventually finding him, and him coming home and sleeping on the couch. I don’t know if we ever spent a whole hour talking in my first 10 years of life…
He can do it, I don’t give a fuck anymore
Goodbye bastard.
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well, this hurts. little close to home for me. booze does bad things to people. not an excuse, it just does. its an old demon that wont go away. i love my kids dearly. mean more to me than life. what damage i caused them in my drinking days. ive been sober 13 years and the guilt and frustration are still their. their is help out their for YOU. try al-anon. support group for families of drunks. we do a lot of damage to those we love and this is a group of folks who have already been through it. only your dad can do anything about HIS drinking. dont let it be your problem. take care of you and what you can do for you. until HE realizes his problem, nothing will change. in my case, i drank for so long because it numbs the pain i carry. i am still repairing the damage i did with so many years of drunkedness. please, seek help. you dont have to deal with this alone
maybe I’m heartless, but yeah, I think your dad deserves to die and I hope he does, based on what you’ve described. Belligerent, destructive, selfish and people that exploit and hurt others are subhuman so frankly, his death would be beneficial if anything if he were to kill himself. Not that I’m saying you should encourage him to commit suicide, but let him know that no one gives a shit about him if he continues to be a selfish asshole (an understatement of a description?) and that he shouldn’t even bother saying that he’s going to kill himself because no one cares. Your mom should kick him out if he’s so destructive and creates such a negative environment and leaves such a negative impact on everything and everyone. But hey, I don’t know the whole story and maybe your mom does care about him and maybe you too at the core, regardless it’s ultimately her decision about what she does with your dad, best of luck, hope everything improves