Reasons to ‘opt out’ : no one wants me, no one needs me, I have no purpose, I am hated by my family, every father figure I’ve ever had knew I have to be erased, I’ll never belong anywhere, No one will miss me, I don’t deserve to be called nor classified as human, I don’t deserve to exist, and nothing I do is ever good enough.
Reasons to ‘carry on’ : foolish hope that my poems might get noticed(HIGHLY UNLIKELY!!!) and fear that my 175 poems might get stolen(and that no one will care)
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I should just do the world a favor already and erase myself… and make sure that I don’t fail this time… my 68th time…. :'(
Hanging: about 8
Burning: 5
Drowning: 2
Beating myself: 20
Cutting: 8
Electrocution: 15
Running in Rush Hour traffic: about 10
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Things I haven’t tried: Drugs, alcohol, and firearm.
Drugs(Pain Killers to end the pain)
Alcohol(To drown my misery)
Firearm(To blow my mind)
1 comment
I don’t have much to say but I’ve seen some of your previous posts and I’m glad to hear you’re still alive.
Sad to see how many times you’ve tried to end your life though..
Would you like to talk?