Last summer i was forced to move out of my dads house because he wasn’t a good man. I was forced to move into my moms in a different state. I bearly even knew her. It was the first day of school and i could tell the students and teachers hated me all ready it was a rich kid school and i was no where near rich. The kids would point at me and laugh and whisper. I felt so small. About a month into school i found a “friend”. I was so happy to find someone i thought i could trust. We had hung out for a few months she came over to my moms house all the time. She NEVER judged me which made me feel great she was the only nice human being left in the world. Except one day i went into school and went to the locker b56 were i always met her each morning. She wasnt there but there was a huge pile of sticky notes telling me im worthless and i should just kill myself. a bunch of the notes had my secrets and life all over them. The only person i told that stuff to was my “friend”. I felt like i was going to be sick so i ran out of school trying to be unseen. But a group of popular girls tripped me. I fell so hard i broke my nose. At that point all i could think about was the notes saying
KILL YOURSELF
WORTHLESS
PIG
S*an*
B****
Sl**
i didnt know what to do. I knew i couldnt talk to my mom and none of the teachers in the school liked me. i had no where to turn. You know its pretty bad when the only person you can talked to is the man you trusted your whole life until her did very bad things you would never forget. I just wanted to die. I ran home knowing my mom wasnt home. and did things i wish i could day i regret. I Feel like this every single day of my life. I always feel like i did that one day and im tired of it i just want to be happy but my mind wont let me. I still have no one to talk to or to trust. I always think life will be better for everyone if i would have been successful that day
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Oh, crying-inside! Sweetie, I am screaming mad at your whole school and esp at that girl who was so horrible to you! This is wrong and I wish I could take the pain away for you. You deserve people who treat you well. I’m sorry these people are so immature and ruthless. We can’t control what people do, you did nothing to create this. Please know that life can get better.
What I wish for you most of all is for support in person. But that is hard to come by- I know. Keep searching. I like you posted for support! I’m glad you can come here and share how things are.
Most of all I wish for better days and moments for you. Life is always changing. Look for the change you need.
(((hug))))
There are few things that hurt worse than when a “friend” is disloyal to you. I’m sorry that happened. It seems like you’re in a tough situation. Perhaps it will help to remember that school is a temporary situation. After graduation, nearly everyone will go their separate ways. Do the best you can do to build a solid foundation so you’re read for your next school, work, or whatever you choose. Life often isn’t like the school years.
If you’re struggling, and you haven’t done so already, maybe it’s a good idea to speak with someone. Feeling like you’re on your own island can become a struggle and tiring after a while. Having some support can be a big help. No matter what, don’t give up on yourself.
One final question: if you can’t talk to the teachers, is there a counselor or principal you can speak to? Teachers should be fair when dealing with students.
No our school is so small there is no guidance counderlors they have to call them in from a different city and the teachers hate me so they wont call