I find every thing about life exhausting.  The daily interactions with other people, all the expectations and obligations.  Every aspect of living takes more effort than it is worth.  The work the effort we have to put into this existence its just far more than we ever get out of it.  I have this secret fantasy, of getting sent to prison on a life sentence.  Where I get to serve out the whole sentence in solitary confinement.  Just 24/7 locked in my little cell, never seeing anyone else.  Just slide a meal tray through the door once or twice a day and leave me alone.  Except I wouldn’t feel like I was locked in, I would feel safe and secure, like I had finally managed to lock the rest of the world out.  I already lock everyone else out its just invisible walls.  Mental walls that I constantly have to guard and maintain.  I just want to hide behind physical walls so I can relax and drop all the mental walls.  Just let me sleep and rest and dream and think and feel and exist without having to deal with anyone or anything else.  No expectations no obligations just peace and quiet and solitude. Of course you can’t really tell anyone this because all they will really hear and focus on is the part that is personal to them.  That you are saying you would be just as happy to never see them again.