So my sister found my account in some forum. Yesterday. My mother just told me some minutes ago.
They have been all this two days reading at my personal stuff. Things I’ve never said to them. My feelings, my private life. My sexual orientation doubts, my problems with friends, my problems with my father. All the things I’ve said about them. Also good stuff. When I met that girl. That night with that boy. Big parties with lots of alcohol, and those with something else. How they ended. Everything. I’ve been writing there since I was 17. Now I’m 25. Just imagine.
So, if I didn’t have enough trouble facing the world, now I can’t even look my family to the face.
It’s not like I had big secrets I didn’t want them to know, but it was a place where I used to write with freedom and -I thought- privacy.
To my mother, it’s funny. She doesn’t even understand why I’m mad.
Yeah, I know. It’s my fault. It’s not even a big deal. Still, I feel that they took away a very important piece of my life. Another one. What’s left?
Already cancelled that account. I don’t even know what they have actually read.
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I think about someone reading my journal/diary. Now there are some things in there I definitely wouldn’t want anyone to know lol. Well actually nothing dreadful is in there. I never committed murder or some felony… So if someone did read it, I wouldn’t like it, but it’ll be okay.
Yeah, not a big deal. At least not rationally. But I feel so… violated…
Several years ago, I made the decision to reveal my depression and battles with suicidal tendencies to everyone in my life after keeping them a secret since my teens. Personally, I found that releasing everything actually helped some.
Of course, I realize your situation is different – you did not make the decision for your family to discover these things about you and perhaps you were not ready. Now that they are aware, however, it is possible that you could find a way to turn this into as much of a positive as possible. Maybe try to think of it as no longer having the burden of keeping these secrets. Best wishes to you.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)