It been a long time since I been to this site and posted anything. I feel a lot better now that i left home and have an amazing long distance boy friend . However like the rest of life i still find the problems to keep me up at night.Like the feeling of still being unable to help any one, as i leave home and travel 4 hours up north with no way to get back till the summer i find my brother falling deeper into the darkness, he never had any friends nor a stable life , however he never been a street rat either, of course on time he did get bad enough that he attempted to still but luckily my mom caught him. He is not a bad kid he just cant stand living these poor life with nothing, no friends, no money, and hardle any hope of escaping the feeling of dispair and depression that he has gain. and it worries me sooo much.. On top of that i have a boyfriend who i care for deeply but we are long distance and really really poor,I been lookng for an full time job so i can help my boyfriend, my family and my self pay for my tuition.but the world is cruel and refused to give me full time work with the job I have now and school. I dont know what to do i cant help any one not my self my boyfriend my mother or my brothers in any way. Any advice or help please comment
I hear your pain as you write about those you love. It is hard to see your loved ones hurt and go through tough times. First, you have to know you are doing something. You are in school though it takes you away. It is good for your future and working your way through this is important. You come first. Keep taking care of you the best you can.
Second, do what you can for your loved ones. Let them know how much you do love them. Figure out what is in your control. Can you call your brother on a regular basis… ie do you have access/ money to do so? Is he able to call you (again, access/ money)? Sending him letters or care packages might work too.
I see your love, kindness, consideration for your family. Take heart in knowing these great qualities you have. Find ways to nurture yourself- eating healthy, getting exercise (walking is easy on a college campus), and other things you like will build yourself up, allowing you to deal with your stress better.
I know it is not easy even so. You might seek out a trusted teacher or even your school counselor to give you emotional support. Talking can help!
Thank you pretend girl for your words, they meant alot.